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Today I started my new eating program to loose weight with Isagenix. My expectation is to improve my health and free myself from physical and emotional pain. I am also thrilled to be part of a team of other users of the program as I know I will need to pour my heart out as I commitment to loosing 90 lbs. Today I weigh in at 259.0 --- just a few days ago I was 256. But I did splurge knowing I was starting this program. My vision must be distorted as I don't think the photos looks too bad or as horrible as when I look in the mirror- maybe because Madison took them. I weighed between 247 and 251 when I was getting chemotherapy / radiation a year ago. So I am pleased with my ability to hold the line pretty much.
This is my third trip down "major weight loss" road. In 1981, I lost 80 lbs with Obesity Research at UPenn. Kept it off until 1994 (13 years) Blew up to 237 and lost 14 lbs to qualify to join Trevose Behavior Modification at 223 in 1997 as you could only be 80 lbs over weight to be considered safe in their program. In 2007, I went way below my goal weight ( to 138) when I got sick with clinical depression and then in January 2008, I got heart sick and started eating to comfort myself and gained lots of weight back. So the 2nd time, I kept the weight off over 11 years and have been fat now for just 8 years. I finally feel free from emotional distress so I am raring to go! May the 3rd time be the last!!!!!!!
I also returned to Hot Yoga. I got to do a speed class today at 4 pm. Stopped at market and picked up some apples and vegetables to add to my turkey and bean chili which was cooking in the crockpot On this program no red meat or dairy for the first 30 days. I have my supplements packed for work as well as apples, almonds and celery. So my hope is to be 206 by Madison's birthday, July 9, 2017 which is 6 months-- 50 lbs in 6 months is about 8-9 lbs a month. Sounds reasonable to me. It will be interesting to see how I manage while I am working because some of it takes time to prepare and I do not like eating late at night- like after yoga or my night job- but we will see how it goes- I might end up eating food for my lunch and doing a shake for dinner on those days. Anyway- that is what I am thinking now.
You know many people told me I was brave when I was getting my cancer treatment- You have no idea what kind of bravery and self acceptance and self love it takes to put this information out there. My form of Breast Cancer was much more manageable to cope with than my obesity and emotional eating. Again there is shame is being fat and feeling helpless but no shame in having cancer.
You know many people told me I was brave when I was getting my cancer treatment- You have no idea what kind of bravery and self acceptance and self love it takes to put this information out there. My form of Breast Cancer was much more manageable to cope with than my obesity and emotional eating. Again there is shame is being fat and feeling helpless but no shame in having cancer.
