In the shower on Sunday, I was washing under my arm and felt a little something- a soft hair - maybe- I have not had to shave under my arms since January. Ehhhhh I thought- let me run a razor over it and see if there is any hair in it - and sure enough there was. So I looked a little closer at my head and it did seem a little darker but I was not sure. So I asked my daughter Madison, who sees my head uncovered more than most people.... she could not really tell either. My hair felt feathery to me - soft and cosy. Then Brian, her boyfriend came over last night and I asked him..... and he said YES. I have a hairline again..... YAY. It is slowly growing in- 7 weeks after my last chemotherapy treatment. I am so excited to start with new hair styles. Might even keep it very short- who knows.
Aside from being tired and having stomach upset, I am feeling very good. I have helpers at work to help me get the cream on all the radiation treated areas and Madison has been doing it at home. I had lunch with a good friend today who had treatment for breast cancer more than 10 years ago and she said hair is over rated. Truth is, I have not minded not having hair except that it draws attention to me and makes others uncomfortable because it is seen as a sign of being "sick". And I have been highly invested in not acting like I am sick.... I have been trying to live as if I nothing serious is really wrong. And for the most part I have been successful at that. And without hair, I can get ready in much less time in the morning. We also talked about the benefit of being able to count our blessings..... even the simplest of them. We both sleep in warm homes and have food in our refrigerator every day. Yep- there are many blessing even when one has breast cancer. Like learning that you got a good head. I wonder if that is what they mean when they say you have a good head on your shoulders? ........ I am grateful that my brain is still working. And my life will go on.
