I am still having a cancer experience because as my hair is growing it is developing cute little curls- Amazing but true. I am also told it will not last. My hair will eventually return to its original condition which is mostly straight. It is so soft though- I remember paying $80 for this when I lived in Florida- I would get a perm when my hair was long and let it grow out slowly- Let's see how this goes.
I got measured for my "sleeve" and now they have some with designs not just plain skin color- So I picked a colorful sketch of a bird scene. I will likely get that next week- It is for when I fly or do strenuous things- It is a compression stocking for my left arm where the lymph nodes were removed and had radiation so my lymph system was damaged.
A part of me feels like this happened to someone one else now. Like I just lent my body to the process of treatment- I guess al those years of being disassociated came in handy. I could separate myself from the experience. But I will not forget how sick chemotherapy made me- I understand why people quit. It makes you so sick and lousy. Thinking that it is temporary only relieves the anguish a little. So basically I feel good, I look good and I am happy.
I am going to met with my Cousin Craig soon- I trust hi completely as he is extremely well informed and help me sort out the current political climate- It is overwhelming and not clear cut anymore. So much eludes me with finding the facts in the middle of all the mud slinging and hatred...... the hatred is very frightening. I do not remember a time when there was so much hatred in my fellow Americans.
I will pray for me and all my friends and loved ones but especially for my country and the world to learn to live in peace with one another.
