Sunday, August 21, 2016

A Little Tears Never Hurt Anyone

I did not know I could cry about my cancer as I had not done so as of Friday August 19. But this hair thing is bothering me- My current head of hair is not familiar to me.  It has waves and curls and then if I comb it it gets ----well.... I do not really know the right word because I have not had curly hair since 1989 when I got my last permanent.  But it seems high on my head and soft too. I have no real style- I have not had a hair cut since early in January 2016, 2 weeks after my first chemotherapy treatment.  In May, my family and I noticed that I had a hair line again and ever since then I stopped wearing "caps" and have been just waiting for it to grow..... and grow into something I could style. I have these little pointy hairs around my ears that don't go forward or behind my ears but just twist in odd directions. I am not happy with my hair right now.

Well here it is----  almost the end of summer and I still do not need a hair cut but I need to do something to style this darn thing- So I stopped by Maureen's shop at the Ritz shopping center and asked her advice. She suggested light mousse. But before she did, I cried.  I actually wined. "I want to look like myself again."  She painfully reminded me that I will not be who I used to be before my diagnosis. I am forever changed. I do not like seeing evidence of my diagnosis of cancer. ... not such visible evidence that makes people notice and then comment to me. I want my cancer to be invisible. So I can talk about it at my discretion.... just like my depression and my heart surgery or any other medical problem I have experienced in my life time. My hair outs me..... as a person who went through cancer chemotherapy treatment. As we approach almost a year of dealing with this, the evidence is in my face. A sometimes sad face. A sometimes blessed face. A sometimes scared face but all of it really is still me.

Wednesday, August 10, 2016

Jefferson Pools / Historic Healing Waters

Way Back in the 1800s, our forefathers (and mothers) often went off to natural mineral springs and took the waters for healing- These Mineral Springs are all over the country but many of them are right here along the east coast mountains ranges- the Alleghenies, The Blue Ridge, The Smokies too.
I got my chance to go back in time and take in a "SOAK" while staying near by at the Omni Homestead.


Historic Jefferson Pools Suffering from Neglect

Dec 10, 2012
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Jefferson Pools, 2012

Bath County, Virginia’s Jefferson Pools have offered visitors a chance to relax in their spring fed waters for more than 250 years. The springs, known for their therapeutic potential, have played host to famous Americans, including Thomas Jefferson, who spent three weeks bathing in the curative waters in 1818, and Mary Custis Lee, wife of Robert E. Lee, who suffered from rheumatoid arthritis. Still open to the public today, the baths offer a rare glimpse of history and are home to the earliest extant example of a springs bath house in the United States; however, they are now under threat due to a period of long-deferred maintenance.

Historic Image of the Women's Bath House

Warm Springs Pools Sign
(UPPER) HISTORIC IMAGE OF THE WOMEN'S BATH HOUSE; (LOWER) THE BATHS
WERE FORMALLY KNOWN AS THE WARM SPRINGS POOLS, PHOTO BY HELLA
ARMSTRO

Visit Preservation Bath’s Web site and sign on to receive regular email updates about the group’s efforts. And, please tell others about the historic Jefferson Pools and urge them to also join the cause.
All images courtesy Preservation Bath.
























Warm Springs      Bath County, Virginia

All who have described this noble fountain, write with enthusiasm; nor is it indeed to be wondered at, for the world may well be challenged for its equal. Its temperature, buoyancy, refractive power, transparency – all invest it with indescribable luxury to the feelings and to the sight.   William Burke
Edward Beyer's print of Warm Springs published in 1857. {1}
Edward Beyer’s print of Warm Springs published in 1857. {1}

William Burke on the Warm Springs.

The Warm Springs, later called the Jefferson Pools, are only five miles from Hot Springs and located in the aptly named Bath County of Virginia. Legend has it that a young Indian traveling more than 200 years before the printing of Burke’s book happened on the spring when he was weary and dispirited. Coming upon the narrow valley filled with water, he first tasted, and then plunged into, the warm waters. Refreshed and invigorated, he continued his trek the next day successfully reaching his destination. Whether this tale is true is debatable, but it is accepted that the waters were used both for bathing and therapy in the later part of the eighteenth century. In the western area of Virginia, Warm Springs and Sweet Springs were the first two springs to be visited by great multitudes.
The brick hotel associated with the springs had accommodations for about 100 people and offered good fare. Burke found the establishment clean and neat with “servants among the best in Virginia.” The octagonal bath house was forty feet from angle to opposite angle and five to six feet deep with a gravelly bottom. The day was divided into two hour periods with men and women alternately occupying the pool. A white flag flew when women were taking the bath. The 96 degree water was plentiful enough that if the bath was drained, it could be replenished in 15 minutes to an hour. Nearby springs, one also warm and another cold, were used for drinking. Children and the “more aged and infirm” used another smaller bath.

Burke’s Recommendations for Using the Waters at Warm Springs.

The Warm Springs as drawn by Porte Crayon in 1857. {2}
The Warm Springs as drawn by Porte Crayon in 1857. {2}
Burke included a lengthy article about Warm Springs published in the Southern Literary Messenger in 1838. The article indicated that the analysis of the water by Professor William Rogers from the University of Virginia showed that the gas bubbling up was mainly nitrogen with small amounts of sulphuretted hydrogen (hydrogen sulfide) and carbonic acid. These same gases were found within the water as well as salts including magnesium sulfate or Epsom Salts. These salts and gases worked as gentle diuretics and laxatives. The Messenger paper indicated that the waters were not a panacea in all cases and that the baths were best avoided by those with a high fever or a full stomach, but had been effective in dyspepsia of long standing, chronic rheumatism, and paralytic afflictions especially if the patient bathed in the water and drank the water for a period of time.
Calling the Warm Spring bath “one of the greatest subjects of curiosity in Western Virginia, Burke also cautioned about the “sunny side of the picture” and wrote, “… it is necessary that the traveller should know there is danger in the indulgence. Experience, fatal in some cases, has taught this fact.” He proceeded to explain that the nitrogen in the lovely bubbles rising to the surface of the spring had the potential to cause “great distress in the pulmonary apparatus.” Burke was careful to write that most people could enjoy and benefit from the bath and included the Messenger paper so that readers could judge for themselves the various merits and dangers.

Thomas Jefferson and Warm Springs.

Thomas Jefferson was at Warm Springs in August 1817 and saw the need for a resident physician to attend those seeking healing at the various springs. Anticipating men like Dr. Burke at Red Sulphur Springs, Dr. Moorman at White Sulphur Springs, and Dr. Goode at Hot Springs, he wrote, “it would be money well bestowed could the public employ a well educated and experienced physician to attend at each of the medicinal springs, to observe, record, and publish the cases which receive benefit, those receiving none, and those rendered worse by the use of their respective waters.” {Jefferson}
“… tried once to-day the delicious bath and shall do it twice a day hereafter … but little gay company here at this time, and I rather expect to pass a dull time.”
With the hope of helping his rheumatism, Thomas Jefferson revisited Warm Springs in 1818. His initial assessment of the effect of the spring water was positive but his visit led to near-disastrous results. On August 4, he wrote his daughter, Martha Jefferson Randolph, “Every body tells me the time I allot to the Springs is too short. That 2. or 3. weeks bathing will be essential. I shall know better when I get there.” {Betts and Bear, 423} Three days later Jefferson wrote Martha that he had journeyed by horseback to the springs and had “tried once to-day the delicious bath and shall do it twice a day hereafter.” He described the table as well kept and the other guests numbering about 45, “but little gay company here at this time, and I rather expect to pass a dull time.” {Betts and Bear, 424}
“… so dull a place, and distressing an ennui I never before knew. … the spring with the Hot and Warm are those of the first merit. The sweet springs retain esteem, but in limited cases.”
One week later on August 14, 1818, Jefferson wrote his daughter that he continued to bathe for 15 minutes three times a day and presumed that the seeds of his rheumatism were eradicated. He decided to yield to the general advice of a three week course. He wanted “to prevent the necessity of ever coming here a 2d time” because, “so dull a place, and distressing an ennui I never before knew.” While he found little to enliven his time, he did write, “the spring with the Hot and Warm are those of the first merit. The sweet springs retain esteem, but in limited cases.” {Betts and Bear, 425}
“A large swelling on my seat, increasing for several days past in size and hardness disables me from sitting but on the corner of a chair.”
The tone of his letter on August 21st changed substantially. He wrote his daughter, “I do not know what may be the effect of this course of bathing on my constitution; but I am under great threats that it will work it’s effect thro’ a system of boils. A large swelling on my seat, increasing for several days past in size and hardness disables me from sitting but on the corner of a chair. Another swelling begins to manifest itself to-day on the other seat.” {Betts and Bear, 426}
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Jefferson’s letter of September 12, 1818 to Dr. Thomas Cooper stated that he had returned from the Warm Springs several days earlier though not in the condition he had hoped but instead “in prostrated health, from the use of the waters. Their effect, and the journey back reduced me to the last stage of exhaustion; but I am recovering.” He explained his brevity in writing as a result of not being able to sit erect due to pain.
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On October 6, 1818, Jefferson wrote to Colonel William Alston who must have provided some “gay company” to Jefferson during his visit to the springs as he was sending Alston wine and hoping for him to visit Monticello. He tells the colonel, “I became seriously affected afterwards by the continuance of the use of the waters. They produced imposthume [abscess], eruption, with fever, colliquative [profuse] sweats and extreme debility. These sufferings, aggravated by the torment of long & rough roads, reduced me to the lowest stage of exhaustion by the time I got home. I have been on the recovery some time, & still am so; but not yet able to sit erect for writing.”
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On December 27, 1818, Jefferson wrote John Jackson that he appreciated the kind interest Jackson had concerning Jefferson’s health and claimed, “my trial of the Warm springs was certainly ill advised. for I went to them in perfect health, and ought to have reflected that remedies of their potency must have effect some way or other. if they find disease they remove it; if none, they make it. altho’ I was reduced very low, I may be said to have been rather on the road to danger, than in actual danger.”
Thomas Jefferson was not the only member of his family to visit the springs in western Virginia. On July 31st, 1795 Jefferson wrote his daughter, Martha Jefferson Randolph, “We have no letter from you since your arrival at the Warm-springs, but are told you are gone on to the sweet springs.” {Betts and Bear, 134} Presumably Martha’s spring visits had happier results than her father’s later visit.
Thomas Jefferson’s table of mileages from Warm Springs, Virginia, to Staunton, Virginia, rates taverns and inns as very good, middling, or very bad. Several are ranked very good with the caveat “if sober.” {4}


Wednesday, August 3, 2016

What Really Matters Most




Here are 5 things you may regret at the end of your life, from a nurse who works with the dying.

If you had a crystal ball to see what you'd regret as you were dying, would you make changes now?

You might think watching people die would depress a person. It actually taught her how to live.

Bronnie Ware spent years as a palliative care nurse, helping patients be as comfortable as possible in the time just before their deaths. She compiled their stories and the most repeated regrets she heard them utter in their final days.
Do you ever imagine what the final years and months and days of your life will be like?
Shared originally on her blog, " Inspiration and Chai," here are the top five regrets, with quotes from her blog as she recorded them.

Regret #1: I wish I'd had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me.


Look at yourself in the mirror. Are you living your best life right now? What's stopping you?
Dreaming of living a different life than the one you have now? Image by Jorge Royan.
"This was the most common regret of all. When people realise that their life is almost over and look back clearly on it, it is easy to see how many dreams have gone unfulfilled. Most people had not honoured even a half of their dreams and had to die knowing that it was due to choices they had made, or not made. Health brings a freedom very few realise, until they no longer have it." — Bronnie Ware

Regret #2: I wish I hadn't worked so hard.

This one speaks for itself.
That desk looks like instant stress before the workday has even started. Image by Alan Cleaver/Flickr.

Regret #3: I wish I'd had the courage to express my feelings.

What if getting the words out is essential to your growth as a human?
Feelings aren't just useless emotions. Expressing them can be the first step to self-actuating and becoming a newer version of yourself. Image by Garry Knight/Flickr.
"Many people suppressed their feelings in order to keep peace with others. As a result, they settled for a mediocre existence and never became who they were truly capable of becoming." — Bronnie Ware

Regret #4: I wish I had stayed in touch with my friends.

Is there someone you treasure who you haven't spoken with in much too long?
They're so important to us and somehow we think that "life" getting in the way is a good enough reason to go without seeing them. Image by Jason Hutchens.
"Everyone misses their friends when they are dying." — Bronnie Ware

Regret #5: I wish that I had let myself be happier.

If you didn't wake up joyful today, why not? What can you do to change that?
Who was the last person you giggled ridiculously with? Call them. Right now. Image by Adina Voicu.
"This is a surprisingly common one. Many did not realise until the end that happiness is a choice. They had stayed stuck in old patterns and habits. The so-called 'comfort' of familiarity overflowed into their emotions, as well as their physical lives. Fear of change had them pretending to others, and to their selves, that they were content, when deep within, they longed to laugh properly and have silliness in their life again." — Bronnie Ware
Were there any regrets on this list that felt familiar to you? Others that you didn't see listed?
These are five universal wake-up calls we all need to be reminded of. There's no shame in tagging all the friends you need to call when you share this.